“ | I think the reason I didn't write about coming out was because it was just unbelievably daunting. It's such a huge experience in a queer person's life. I couldn't find a way to write about it that didn't feel like it was underplaying it or overplaying it or turning it into something cheesy, and I wanted it to feel real and down-to-earth. It was such an important moment in my life, so I had to talk about it in the right way. It was Alex, Jack Antonoff, and myself, and weirdly, Grimes is on that song, just a vocal sample at the beginning. Jack was messing around with samples and he put it in, and then afterwards, he's like, ‘Oh, by the way, that's Grimes' voice.’ I was really starstruck by [Antonoff]. I love him. He's a sweet Jewish boy who reminds me of a lot of people I know in my personal life. He completely put us at ease. I remember me and Alex being like, ‘We can't fuck this up.’ And I'm really, really happy with it. | ” |
— Troye Sivan[1]
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"Heaven" (often stylized as "HEAVEN") is a song by Troye Sivan, featuring Betty Who, and is featured as the sixth track off of Sivan's debut studio album, Blue Neighbourhood. The song appears as the ninth track on the deluxe edition of the album. It was written by Sivan, Alex Hope, and Jack Antonoff and was produced by Antonoff.
Background[]
This song is based on Troye's feelings when he was 14-15 years old thinking about his sexuality. The song became the fourth single from Blue Neighbourhood on October 17, 2016 and its first live television performance was on The Ellen DeGeneres Show the next day.
The music video was announced via social media on January 16, 2017 and was released on inauguration day, January 20.
Lyrics[]
[Troye Sivan:]
The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek
Trying to save face, and daddy heart break
I'm lying through my teeth
This voice inside
Has been eating at me
Trying to replace the love that I fake
With what we both need
The truth runs wild
Like kids on concrete
Trying to sedate, my mind in it's cage
And numb what I see
Awake, wide eyed
I'm screaming at me
Trying to keep faith and picture his face
Staring up at me
Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?
[Betty Who:]
The truth runs wild
Like the rain to the sea
Trying to set straight the lines that I trace
To find some relief
This voice inside
Has been eating at me
Trying to embrace the picture I paint
And colour me free
[Troye Sivan:]
Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?
The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek
Gallery[]
“look at you, pop the culture, iconography” To view the Heaven gallery, click here.
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Audio[]
Videos[]
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Music Video[]
Performances[]
Trivia[]
- This is the longest song from Blue Neighbourhood.
- Troye's real life boyfriend, Jacob Bixenman was in the music video.